spiritualscientific.com Blog » Life Stories http://spiritualscientific.com/blog Pauline's Blog Mon, 23 Mar 2009 21:54:22 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.8.4 en hourly 1 Spirit of Confusion http://spiritualscientific.com/blog/2009/03/14/spirit-of-confusion/ http://spiritualscientific.com/blog/2009/03/14/spirit-of-confusion/#comments Sat, 14 Mar 2009 13:57:35 +0000 Administrator http://spiritualscientific.com/blog/2009/03/14/spirit-of-confusion/ I haven’t written in a long time (and still no comments!) but now I have something to talk about. May God keep this away with love, but there is an evil spirit of misunderstandings out there, that doesn’t like good things to happen. I believe our mission is an important one, and God’s will. But have you noticed sometimes you might feel like you’re going crazy because you hear the opposite of what someone was supposed to have said? Or even better, have you ever had someone get the total wrong impression of you, and it seems that everything you do somehow fits the wrong impression? Well we have had that happen to us. Between Melvin and I, and with other people. It’s crazy and sometimes painful. When it happened to Melvin and I, we seemed so easilly offended by things we (mistakenly) heard from eachother. Not only did we hear or say the wrong things, but we were so oversensitive! Normally we are like a unit, we communicate non-verbally a lot, and we are always in tune with eachother. Even when we first met, people could see our moves were coordinated even when we didn’t know it. Fortunately we are stronger because of what happened to us. And we are stronger still everytime it happens. As I once heard Joyce Meyer say, “the Devil likes division.” We need to be unified.
Well that’s all for now, I’d love to see some more comments. Let’s all achieve more unity with love and communication. Not just us and the website, but you with eachother. Keep up all the loving work you do.
Remember, keep love in your heart when you hear something that may at first offend you. You might have heard wrong! Forgive! It is a myth that it always happens again. That only happens in abusive situations. It doesn’t take just one misunderstanding to think you are in an abusive situation. You know because of a lot of other things. So my point is, don’t burn the bridge over a misunderstanding. Oh and one more thing. This is something I learned while in Colorado. All anger, hate, and other negative behaviors stem from fear. If you remember that, it’s easier to understand people and have compassion for them. Because whether they know it or not, if you send loving thoughts to them it helps them! That is how you pray for someone less than pleasant to be around.

]]> http://spiritualscientific.com/blog/2009/03/14/spirit-of-confusion/feed/ 0 I have an important story to tell http://spiritualscientific.com/blog/2009/01/18/i-have-an-important-story-to-tell/ http://spiritualscientific.com/blog/2009/01/18/i-have-an-important-story-to-tell/#comments Sun, 18 Jan 2009 16:59:45 +0000 Administrator http://spiritualscientific.com/blog/2009/01/18/i-have-an-important-story-to-tell/ I’ve been thinking a lot about this and I’ve decided I need to write and share this with you. Melvin sometimes likes to mention that we met 15 years ago when he resuscitated my baby. This was actually 17 years ago, we lost track but I counted. I was only 19 then, and made a lot of mistakes, like meeting the worst possible boyfriend anyone could ever have the misfortune of meeting (not Melvin! We didn’t meet again until 13 years later). I will not tell the details of my relationship with this boyfriend, but he did a lot of stupid things that made a lot of people angry. He used to forever bug my mom and try to find me, but one day he stopped and I never heard from or about him again. I automatically thought someone got mad enough… Well anyway, I got pregnant, and the baby was born 6 weeks premature. Melvin was the one who came to take care of him. I was fortunate enough to know a family who took us in and took very good care of the baby. I don’t remember their names, it was 17 years ago. I remember the mother had a very sweet child like voice, and the father had a prosthetic leg. I named my son Anthony Lee Allen Jacobson.

Unfortunately for me, but I suppose fortunately for my son, they disappeared with him. But it seems that Child Protective Services approved of it. You know, they came to check on us, and of course that terrible boyfriend of mine just threatened and chased the investigator away!

I am sad to say I never saw my son again, and I even lost the one picture I had of him. When he was 6 I heard that they moved to Canada and wanted to start him in school but they didn’t have a birth certificate so the Royal Canadian Mounted Police contacted me. I told them that I don’t want to take him away from them, I just want to be sure they are taking good care of him.

I think usually an adopted son will look for his birth parents at about age 17. I was hoping he would be looking for me, so I’m putting a message out there. I’d like to think he’s getting ready for college or something. I want him to know there is a very stark difference between my life then and my life now.

This is a very daring thing I’m doing, writing something about myself revealing I wasn’t some perfect kid. And this doesn’t have anything to do with science, but maybe spiritual. It is interesting how I had a chance meeting with my soulmate and didn’t know it. And we were trying to make it work with the very opposite, if there is such a thing as the opposite of a soulmate.

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